Tag: boredom

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Not only did I go out today, (Fourth of July) but I also did my hair and makeup. As draggy as I’ve been feeling lately, that’s something to celebrate. I want to see a doctor and get some tests done, just as a checkup. I don’t know if I am depressed or bored, or both, but there is a nagging feeling of fatigue that I just can’t seem to shake.

I’m not sure if it’s the transition from feeling like I’m working every day to vacation. I had to spend the last four weeks or so grading, and I did it so I wouldn’t feel burnt out every day. Thankfully, my university is very laid-back, and no one was cracking a whip to get the grades done. That’s a very good thing.

And I’ve got this mindset that I can’t truly have fun unless everything is done. No play before work, but if we truly lived our lives like that, no one would do anything fun. So I try to get a certain amount done before having lunch, taking a nap, or calling it quits.

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Not only did I go out today, (Fourth of July) but I also did my hair and makeup. As draggy as I’ve been feeling lately, that’s something to celebrate. I want to see a doctor and get some tests done, just as a checkup. I don’t know if I am depressed or bored, or both, but there is a nagging feeling of fatigue that I just can’t seem to shake.

I’m not sure if it’s the transition from feeling like I’m working every day to vacation. I had to spend the last four weeks or so grading, and I did it so I wouldn’t feel burnt out every day. Thankfully, my university is very laid-back, and no one was cracking a whip to get the grades done. That’s a very good thing.

And I’ve got this mindset that I can’t truly have fun unless everything is done. No play before work, but if we truly lived our lives like that, no one would do anything fun. So I try to get a certain amount done before having lunch, taking a nap, or calling it quits.

Restless

So things are kind of meh right now. I want some areas of my life to speed up, other areas to slow down. The time dilemma, you know?

China continues to China. But a more recent development is that I don’t have to wear a mask if I don’t want to. People actually protested here a few months ago. Sick of Covid? So are the Chinese, no matter what Fox news and the rest of the media have to say about it. So people complained. And the government listened! Borders have opened up, and we don’t have to scan our health codes at businesses or the subway anymore. Oh sure, some people still wear masks, either to protect themselves or others, if they are sick.

I’ve started my yearly garden. Last year, my peppers started in March, didn’t really flourish until September. Talk about late bloomers! But they finally appeared, if a bit on the puny side. They tasted like peppers, and it was satisfying to see the jungle of vines on my balcony. I’ve got tomatoes and peppers started now. I hope the tomatoes take off. Those never seem to work for me, but I’ve tried a couple of varieties. One produces marble-sized fruit, the other are more like Early Girl size. Both are delicious and I’m really hoping they work.

Right now is the rainy season and that’s not helping my mood. Gray skies and the threat of rain tend to render me comatose. Fortunately, having a more flexible work schedule is helpful.

But the restlessness remains. What am I waiting for? What am I wanting? Why am I so edgy?